A few weeks ago I had a brief, but thought provoking conversation with a coworker. She was wearing some new glasses and I thought they were pretty cool. I shared with her how I’ve worn glasses since the third grade and always thought of them as an accessory like jewelry. I buy a new pair every year and I’m always drawn to eyewear that is unique and stands out.
That led to us discussing hair, clothes…you know, girl stuff. I remarked how I would take more risks with my wardrobe and hair style if I had a different profession…a more creative occupation. She smiled at me and said, “You would be you,” and walked away.
She was 1000% right. I stood there pouring my coffee and felt the weight of that statement as I let it soak in for a few moments.
For years I’ve known that what I do for a living doesn’t fully embrace who I am, but as a responsible adult I suck it up and do what I have to do to pay the bills like millions of people do every single day.
I wonder how many CEOs would rather be teachers and how many janitors should be CEOs. Is there a museum curator who would rather trade stocks? Or does a stock broker want to be an archaeologist? This list could go on and on. I’m part of that list, but taking steps to change that.
At first I was reluctant to write this post because I didn’t want it to impede the plans that I’m working on. But I’m a firm believer that what is meant for me will be, by God’s grace. One of the main reasons why I tell my struggles here is to encourage others and let them know they’re not the only ones dealing with certain issues.
I make a decent living and I’ve been blessed that it has a afforded me a fairly comfortable life. Unfortunately, I have been comfortably uncomfortable for a long time and cannot allow myself to continue for the sake of nice paycheck. I desire more. I’m a creature of passion and want a 9-5 that is not just a means to an end, but is more meaningful.
Right now, I’m taking steps to make my dreams a reality. I’ve tried before and ideas have been delayed or shut down altogether. Sometimes I can be my own worst enemy. It’s hard, but it is even more difficult to remain stuck in the same position. I even feel more alive fighting for my dreams than fighting for a false sense of contentment in a dead end situation.
I don’t know where this road will lead and the plan changes almost daily. I do know, however, that faith without works is dead [James 2:26], so here I am putting actions to what I believe I should do in my heart. If it’s not meant to be then I’ll find out through trial and error…not because I didn’t try.